I haven't visit my page for ages. I've been kindda lazy to do so. There's just too many work to do with so little time and honestly I don't even know what to write. Anyway, forget about all that. Gonna start my fourth year now and I'm finally a senior! I managed to survive my freshman, sophomore and junior year. Should I say Yay? I feel more like groaning because the expectations is higher. Urgh..

I don't feel like coming back. Part of it is because I've been enjoying my laid back holiday too much but mostly is because I don't want to go back to that dreaded ol' T-town. Bleurkhh... I don't know why. Ever since I step foot there I have never once feel comfortable or totally happy. But at least I managed to come to term with that dreaded place. Thank God I managed to do that.

To me its a sorrowful place. It depends on peoples perspective really. From my view, I have no heart for it. I have no idea why but being there every single time it makes me feel hollow. To say that this is the farthest that I've travel, being away from my family and friends is not true. I've travel farther and yet I've never felt so alone and outcast like what T-town did to me. It sucks.

I've been here for a full three years but still I haven't been able to find a heart for it. Me being here, sometimes I feel like I'm just pretending. Like I'm putting up a show. A facade. And honestly, I'm tired of it. Its mentally and physically exhausting. When I'm in T-town and when I'm back home is like two totally different person. I guess that is another reason why I don't wanna go back. Because I'm just sooo damn tired. But anyhow, no matter how hard I try to resist i still have to continue my studies so I've gotta suit up my armor and face it. Daa~