Windsor, CO

Somehow i was itching to write about Windsor. i don't know why but somehow or rather i kept thinking about it today..i miss it so bad. to those of you who have never heard of windsor, well  let me tell you that windsor is a place in Colorado.it's a small town with friendly people. it is situated near the rocky mountain and where ever you turn the rocky mountain sort of surrounds you.

there's a saying goes 'if you don't like the weather in colorado just wait for 5 minutes'. its weird but it is so true. at first i myself find it hard to believe but after a while you'll start to realize that they are not joking. seriously. it'll be hot and sunny for 5 min and raining and windy the other..

and talking about the weather, windsor was turned upside down by a mile wide tornado in 2008 (i think i got the timeline right).everyone was shocked. nobody expected it. we were all scared shitless i can tell you that.

the day started out pretty good minus the fact that the weather was dark and gloomy but everyone's reaction was just 'oh its pretty dark today eh?'

even when the hail started everyone was relaxed. it normal weather transition from spring to summer they said..the hail was small to begin with and that's why nobody was worried..for those of you that have no idea what hail is, its basically a ball or irregular lump of ice. Hail forms in strong thunderstorm clouds, particularly those with intense updrafts, high liquid water content, great vertical extent, large water droplets, and where a good portion of the cloud layer is below freezing.

pebble size hail.

after a while it starts to get bigger and bigger and some even suffered head injuries.

imagine these huge golf size hail falling down from the sky.

this is when we knew that something bad is going to happen. i mean seriously, a huge ball of ice falling down from the sky is just NOT right.

everybody started to freaked out and to make it worse the phone line went dead.. yeah great. we manage to get an info that there is a huge mile wide tornado that has hit windsor. it took everyone by surprise. people started to cry, everybody was pale and compared to the commotion inside the building, it was dead quite outside. i finally knew what it was like to know that you might be a goner. 

counting that we were lucky after being hit by not one but 3 tornadoes in one day we were cleared to go back home..going back on that day suck. i'll show you why.

these are just the minor damages.i can't go near the centre zone.

windsor looked like a war zone..the houses, the trees and everything was tear apart. since then everything was focused on rebuilding the town. my regards, love and prayers goes to the town i once called home. daa~

Are we there yet?

So, are we there yet?


it is an interesting question to ponder don't you think? ok probably you might get confuse..there?where?well, where ever you want to. given an example say... you want to help others to be a better person by giving them advise. are you there yet? are you a better person today than what you are yesterday?

            we often overlook the smaller details while focusing on the bigger picture. we say to people 'hey, you should do this not that' or 'wear this don't wear that'. problem is, have we look at ourselves and pinpoint our own flaws? rarely isn't it? we seem to forget to consider that other people have feelings too. we don't consider how we approach them and we don't try to look at things using their perspective just as long as the message is delivered.
           funny how we are so focus on changing the others into a so call better person but we never seem to think about changing ourselves into the better person. why is it? i see this happening all around me. is it  because we think that we are good enough? that we are perfect? are we? are we perfect?are we there yet?

            personally i don't think anybody is. and you know what is interesting? that whenever people are in the 'mood' of giving advises, one of the most common, cliche sentence that comes out of their mouth is 'I know I'm not perfect but the advise i'm giving is not just for you but a reminder to me as well'.
           well i'll say cut the crap! stop using the same lines over and over again. it hurts my head and its freaking annoying. if you yourself in the first place know that you're not perfect then correct yourself first. don't stick your nose into other peoples' business trying to make them better when you are not.

            i mean what is their problem? they have this attitude of  like well i know i'm not perfect but i'm gonna advise you anyway.urghh...why don't YOU learn to walk in a straight line first before teaching others..
           seriously, have anybody heard of role model before? well, try to be that before you start giving your words of wisdom. or at least make sure that the adviser acts better than the person receiving the advise.

         when you don't talk the talk and don't walk the walk, hey, people are not going to like you honey.so do do a quick checklist on yourself first before thinking about telling other people to change. see whether YOU are perfect before telling others to be one.

         wrapping up, i say try to look at ourselves in the mirror more often so that whenever those 'moods' starts pounding, you'll stop for a sec to think are you there yet?if its a yes then by all means do give out your words of advise to everyone everywhere. but if its a no no then zip your mouth, throw away the keys and don't open it til you are fit to give an advise ok :)

                                                              too bad  this happens quite often.

Exams anybody?

ok i'm freaked out.
there. I've let it out.
but somehow it doesn't help me at all. i'm still stressed out. darn it. this is the defining moment where i start to regret all those time that i have been fooling around in class and not paying attention and wish that i could turn back time to start all over again.

i mean seriously, study week is the worse and by far fastest week on earth. really. I'm not kidding. It's like one or two days are missing in a single week. How can that be?Its as if after Monday is done with his shift, Tuesday decides to take a leave and so is replace by Wednesday. Argghhh it's so frustrating. how come that does not happen during the 'normal' days? say when i have class everyday from 8-5. yes, now the whole world knows that my class is from 8-5 everyday alright. and yes I'm a university student. ouh and that does not include night classes. pleasant isn't it?

another thing about exam and study week is that my poor room will be neglected. really. who cares about a messed up room when your mind is going crazy thinking about viva and all those thick and i do mean THICK books with all those pathogenesis and mechanisms that you have yet to read and understand and memorize?

                                                        this is AFTER i did some cleanup ok.
                                                        i can't let people see the ugly truth.
                                                        to us (that's me and my roommate) this
                                                        is considered decent alright.

                                                        ok this I'm proud to say is NOT my drawer.
                                                       belongs to my roommate.
                                                       should i mention the name?
                                                       nah, probably not. if i do, those future husband of
                                                       her thats lurking somewhere out there might
                                                       cross her off the list as a potential wife to be.

  

                                                         umm... i don't think I'm gonna comment
                                                         anything on this one
                                                                                                        

                                                          its FOOD!!! glorious can, preserved food.... 
                                                        

                                             what you can see is just half of the books that can be 
                                                           stacked on that teeny tiny shelf.
                                                             i guess we need a bigger one XD

So this is what happen every time exam week knock on my door and decided to stay for the weekend. i became some sort of a nomad, moving here and there. going from room to room asking tons of questions, pleading for explanations, and checking for answers to the exercise questions that i did which took almost the entire day. this is why my room looks like a shipwreck. maybe not just A shipwreck. maybe its two or even three shipwreck.

before a conclusion is made, i just want to make it clear that this RARELY happen...it only happens during the exam time. its not terminal but its pretty much like a recurrent disease. or seasonal maybe. but when it does happen, hey a person can get lost in that small space and a treasure hunt could be hosted in that room.

anyway those mess couldn't even compare to the mess that i have in my head. my brain is running out of gigs and i still have a chunk of cvs that haven't been covered yet. therefore i got to go. need to zip the all the infos to make way for the new ones. daa~

      phew......okay so i had a very long tiring week..haven't been able to actually to relax instead i have 2 double up my energy to get through a couple more of hectic week. but hey i'm sneaking in some of my time publishing this post. so talk about hectic week means that there's definitely tons of meeting with....people. talking about people, i wonder why do we bother so much to be like everyone else and not just embrace who n what u are??we hide our uniqueness or individuality so to speak just because others don't understand it?? why not make them understand? and ouh, i guess its easier to stereotype n judge people rather than getting to know them.

                            i missed the time where there are friendliness in the neighborhood,  open minded n eager learners n those who give good n sensible suggestion. pardon me, but i do think that we are losing those qualities and we are also losing passion. passion to fight for the right, passion to do what we believe in or even passion for life itself.

     ppl might question why this song is posted.well, there's no solid reason for it basically..just coz...

                   "the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do"

that is definitely one of my fav pastimes.. i like to play against the norm. love trying to beat the odds. it's just me. at first when people around u are sceptical with ur abilities it can be quite frustrating but hey don't fret...just suck it all up n show 'em what u've got..once u've beat the odds then u'll see that their attitudes towards u will change..its basic human attitude.they only want to be with the winners and not the sore loser..
        i don't get it..i just don't understand what is wrong with failing? why do people treat failure as if it is the end of the world?apasal? skali fail xblh bjaya trs ke?? come on people...its not THAT bad..at least its not a death penalty n u're still alive.

                so take it all in a stride people because what is there to life if you knew you could not fail?

Debate!!!!!!

          darn it...i've put myself in a big mess..again. i don't know how it started but I'm supposed to be one of the main debaters for the debate competition...thanks to that, my level of self confidence has gone down to zero..no no no...not zero..negative.yes, negative. I'm so tense that i think i might puke just by thinking about the competition. urgh...why and how did i get into this mess??? there's gonna be all the heavy hitters university plus, its gonna be about medical issues..
yeah yeah i know some might say that its easy and of course the topic is goin to be on medical issues since its a debate among medical school but hey, do you think its easy standing in front of the audience pouring your points out? don't brag and be honest. its not easy. it requires skills and knowledge. and knowledge is one of the important ingredients that i don't think i have.

   i'm freaking out right now..but i've gotta keep my cool . i can't falter under pressure and i hope that things will turn out alrite. daa~

Have a Nice Day

   It's amazing to see how easy we judge those who are different from us. we seem to think that we are perfect enough til it gives us the power to condemn others. i never thought people could be so shallow. i expected better but hey, seems like I've overestimated.
   But u know what I'd like to say to those people? have a nice day...
   Yep..Thats what i'll say to those who love to judge others, to those bossy people and especially to those who tells me how to live my live. some might not agree with me but to me, those people don't know me and have never made and effort to know me. so why should i bother? i'm gonna live my life. Heck, in fact i'll do more than that. i'm gonna shine like a diamond, i'll stand on the ledge, i'll show the wind how to fly and most importantly i'm gonna show them that one can be successful even when you are different. so go on, you can like me or hate me for my differences but i'm gonna live my life just the way i like it. =D